My 2 week holiday plan

Ah, finally. I finished my final exam which was english. Too easy. Now, I’m free. Although I’m free, I have no idea what I’m doing for my holidays. I think I’ll plan it via this post, but I hope it works lol. These are going to be out-of-the-blue plans:

1. Get a new shiny 7′6ft fibre glass board this sunday or saturday.

2. Gotta exercise more.

3. Gotta clean this horrible room.

4. Practice some new guitar pieces (any suggestions?)

5. A bit of nerding here and there

6. Gotta do my old bike ride routine which I have done for a while. Bondi > Vaucluse > Watsons Bay > Vaucluse again > Military Road > Bondi Beach > Waverly > Coogee > Maroubra > Kesington > City > Centenial Park (dam spelling) > Bondi Junction > Bondi lol. It’s a 3 hour bike ride. But since I haven’t been exercising for a while, It may be 4. I gotta try lol.

7. Compose more music. (Making my own music)

8. Sort out my money in my bank.

9. Go to Darling Harbour and play some poker with some mates.

10. Log on msn >.<

11. NO SLEEPING! OMG. I hate wasted Holidays

12. Finish off my stories for certain people.

In conclusion, I think i’ll be surfing a little more this holiday. I need it.

There we go. All set. I think after this holiday, things are going to be a little better at my school. It’s usually fun to talk about peoples holidays when you come back. You can clearly tell whether someoen is lieing or not at my school because when they say something like “Oh, we went to the golf course with airhorns and blew them before the golfers could swing.” … The golf courses have barbed wire fences >.< That’s just an example though. Lol

I don’t know whether I’ll be around on this blog or msn this holiday. Depending how busy I am because I do NOT want to waste this holiday. I want to go out, I want to do something. Something that makes me feel active. When you sit here on this laptop in this horrible and dirty room, I feel … LAZY. That’s the word. I’m the opposite to lazy…well trying to. I do my best not to stay at home. But hey, once I grab my board this weekend, bye bye to the laziness of my body.

Surfing is great actually. My first lesson was brilliant. But you won’t believe what happened BEFORE the lesson. I was however SCREAMING at the top of my voice at my mum for putting me in a surfing lesson without asking me. This was when I was a sumo. Haha. I was very lazy back in year 4-6 and I didn’t want to do anything.
So I was really angry that I had to go “surfing”. I went with my sister and I was offloading to my sister saying “Why do we have to surf, I don’t want to surf. I rather Swim. Swimming is better than surfing.”

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I was wrong…

The first time I stood up, I was… Speechless. It felt Great. It feels like you’re flying actually. That’s if you don’t look down at your board. As you get better, you go across the waves and that’s even more better. Because you have crashing water chasing after you and you’re flying across the unbroken wave and to me it feels like you’re in an action movie. There are various ways of explaining what it feels like to surf, but that’s how i see it. Now today, I’m an okay surfer, good enough that I can go across the waves.

As a boy, it feels great when you have girls watching you and they get jealous of you as they watch you fly across the wave…yet a bit of inspiration. But there are better surfers than me on Bondi. I still need to practice and this weekend, is when my board goes faster :D:D:D. Can’t wait.

To make this post interesting. This is the beach I surf and this is where I live near

Edit two: OMG. I have to put this picture up. This is a storm that went by Sydney last year:

 

Just a quick post :)

First of all, this was a depressing weekend. But my last post on Friday was just me going through this: “Sad without a reason”. It happens occasionally. But it wasn’t as bad as it was last year. You probably won’t see me like that for another 2 months or something. But with the help of Westy and Aniqa, I feel much better now.
Back to what I was saying before, yeah this weekend was terrible. I got treated really unfairly with my family. They just won’t leave me alone when i’m nerding. I’m beginning to nerd more and I’m enjoying it, but then a family member comes along and screams at the top of their lungs at me. It’s not right or fair.

Not only that, I also have this disturbing thought in my head. It’s something very personal, but it’s been bugging me all weekend and even as i’m typing this. I’m still worrying about it. Believe it or not, it relates to my CC.

So, the best i could do today was, just go to Bondi Junction and go to the Church of Bookworms. (Bookworms rule) Bondi Junction Waverly Library. It’s really nice in there actually. Although, I should’ve discovered this place years ago. It’s just silence in there. All you can hear is Computer motors and people switching pages of their books. I listened to my classical music too and I got through my studies nice and easily. I felt really happy about that. Then I decided to go to Darling Harbour at the city. I usually go there by myself to settle my thoughts. To be honest it does work. I just look at the water, the lights, boats, the sunsetting, the beauty of the skies and clouds.  EXcept the couples. Couples make me jealous >.< Constant kissing lol. Anyways, around 5:00pm the lights of Darling Harbour turned on and I just felt so relaxed. I don’t know why. I should go there more often. Here’s two pictures I took while I was there. .

Nice isn’t it? This is the place I will always go to. To settle my thoughts and painful times. The second pic is where my story leads to. Just at that spot.

There is always a time when something goes wrong.

Yes it does. For some reason I feel really sad right now. It’s just People and their jokes just go too far sometimes. This is the problem I had in 2007. People were ALWAYS chucking jokes at me. In general I can take a joke pretty well, but when it comes to humiliation it becomes a big issue. In my school, things have gone terribly wrong in the past and usually when you don’t talk to someone for a while, they usually forget why they don’t want to talk to you. I”ve had that issue many many times.
Now days I try not to say much to the people that i had problems with in the past and then you get some idiot who comes around and humiliates you in front of the class and then get laughed at. It’s not fair you know. People just attacking you for no reason or want the upper hand.
Not only that, my friends aren’t there to protect me either. I’m really cursed I think sometimes. Whenever I get happy, there’s always something just around the corner to bring me down. Even words is enough to put me all the way down to the bottom.
Doesn’t that ever happen to you sometimes? You try your best to fight that horrible negative feeling inside your mind and thought in your head.  Then later on you crack it open and you feel free. But sadly it seals itself up again and you seem trapped and sad. I really don’t know what to say. At this point, i’m trying my best to stay happy. My school isn’t helping me at all, Neither is tafe. I just feel like collapsing. Well not literally but that’s what I feel like.

In english today, we were learning about these themes: Belonging, Alienation and Identity. I’m pretty sure everyones life plays a part in those three themes. In all three, they’re pretty bad for me at the moment. One thing is, I don’t belong to a particular group that i’m happy with. Alienation… self explainatory. And identity, who the hell am I? Seriously. Am I thomas with friends and is happy? or am I thomas with bloody nothing?

The ones who humilate me and target me are the Gangsers and idiots at my school. They are the ones who get popular. Although they’re the retards and won’t have a life when they’re older. Why do other people support them? Why are they so popular even though they’re not going to achieve anything? They humuliate people and think it’s right. I was popular once upon a time, but I never targeted any1 to critisize. But OTHER popular people turned others againts me and its been going on like that since year 8.
I don’t know what my school expects of me! I’ve tried many many ways to make myself a little more noticable at my school. Either guitar performances, joining random groups. But nothing ever turns out right! Why?! I only have 1 close friend in my whole entire life. That’s Harrison Short himself. What does everyone else have? bloody 60 people? Yeah, this isn’t right! I would want 5 close friends AT LEAST! I really don’t know what to do, I don’t know how to get a reputation at this point. Whenever I try, my reputation is always blown down to the bottom. No one cares anyways, I feel as if I’m still on my own at the moment and I need to make some important plans.

OMG! Haha

I have to post this up. I found it randomly

 

This weekend

Ugh…i’m so full. Stupid food. Nah food is cool. Because of this full stomach of mine, I can barely type. Well, after writing my stories I can still type fast. I know all the letters on the keyboard…A…B…C… NO. I know the order from qwerty etc. I can type and not even look at the keyboard yay. Ok no one wants to know what my skillz are on typing geez. This clearly means i’m extremely bored. But hey, the topic says “This weekend.” so there must be something I can write.

Tonight at the city, I was waiting for my brother and my mother to get out of the cake stall and I was outside listening to my music. And then I saw this girl and my god…she was gorgeous. (To be honest, i think most girls are gorgeous) but this girl was like… wow. I was so tempted to go talk to her. She was by herself, but I couldn’t ditch my family. She smiled at me too which was also a nice thing to see, and then she walked away with her mother. I was wrong… Girls up here in Bondi are fine. I just haven’t been around to see them.

My fingers are CRAZY. Last night, I was on my bed with my guitar and my hand wouldn’t stop shaking. (Don’t think dirty haha) This is good, because I can play my guitar extremely fast, but when I went to sleep, my hand wouldn’t stop shaking! It wanted to pick the guitar more and more. That was the most sus paragraph I have ever written.

Once again, my budgies were cleaning each other. I had the perfect opportunity to take a picture of them cleaning each other but my phone was upstairs. Cool things always happen when my phone is never around.

                                                                                

 

Do you know what find really funny? I can walk around saying I got hit by a car. Yes. I got hit by a car. This happened in 2002. My cursed years at St.Charles. It’s the worst public school of all time. Back to the point, I was coming down a really steep hill on my old silver scooter. Oh i miss it soo much. I came to a set of lights and there was no crossing there, so I took the pathway further up this road and then I decided to go across there. There was a huge van on my left as I crossed so I couldn’t see what was going on. So then I went to the otherside and BOOM. I got hit and I went flying (along with my scooter) in the air. My god. It was a bloody great feeling having my feet off the ground and my legs were paralyzed too. then I hit head first into the ground and I had a massive scratch and bruise on my face. The map above was done quickly by paint. I’m the red line and the yellow line is the car and that’s where I got hit. I didn’t cry. My reaction was HOLY CRAP! Nothing from that. 

2 weeks till holidays for me. Can’t wait. I got 2 assessment tasks and 2 tests coming up. So… when those are over i’ll be like FREE. Yay. I wanna catch up with some mates.

Because this post was extremely boring I have something to add

 

ԓ Tell me how to win your heart for I haven’t got a clue ԓ

My title is a quote from the song called “Hello” by Lionel Richie. That guy is sooo smart. Seriously. For Coming up with that song. You should check it out. When I was listening to that song, i thought…Why didn’t I come up with a lyric like that? I mean, that’s something that most men need to tell their girlfriends. (The title). Here’s the song: This is from the 1980s. Holy crap. I thought it was made in the 2000s >.< Stupid me.

I got some pretty bad luck tonight, a few family problems here and there. Hopefully it will end tomorrow or something. I’m just sitting here in my room typing on my laptop. I was kinda shaking earlier because I hate the fact that I’m the family member that gets picked on. I’m the mid child, what would you expect? I’m too young to tell my sister what to do and i’m too old to tell my brother what to do and no way I could tell my parents what to do. I’m not saying that I boss people around. Gah, i don’t know. that’s the way I see my family. The mid child who has no priority or power :P. Hmm…power might not be the right word but yeah. I don’t know.

My legal assignment is almost complete. I misunderstood something in the paper. If I didnt’ ask my friends, I would’ve stressed myself out. But thanks to…Jason…angela…and lamo I’m gonna finish the bloody assignment tomorrow.
Music, I finished … (well almost finished) today. I got one more section to write and I’m done. Music is too easy for me, but I need to catch up in my other subjects. Sadly.
I have to study my maths and my… Business studies. TBH I hate business studies, there’s too many definitions to remember. Although I hate maths too, I prefer it than bloody Business.

I have a few things to say to a few girls before I log
Beckky:
I was browsing through your youtube videos a few nights ago and my god, you have the funniest youtube video. The Pidgeon video. You managed to make a pigeon eat a meat pie. That’s waaaaay too epic Beckky. Tooo epic :D. I’ve seen it like 5 times now and I still find it amusing. I love your Drama video too, you’re talking as if you’re a lawyer at court.
Aniqa:
You are epic too :D. Too random eh? haha. You rock Aniqa. I demand a new post from you on your blog. I’ll /tickle you next time I see you. Hehe. Don’t think that Ninja turtle suit will protect you. hehe. I love my new wallet, it’s sooo cool.

Westyy:
Westy, i’ve finished editing the first novel for you, but it’s kinda small, so I’ll just quickly dash through the 2nd novel for you so that it’s worth reading. I also read about your blog (the one on the 19th). I didn’t want to comment in your blog, I think i’ve responded to like 5 of your posts in a row and I didn’t want to be seen as a stalker lol. Anyways, it doesn’t matter if you’ve done worst than everyone else. It’s not the worst thing that could happen. The worst thing is, losing that 10% in your chemistry exam which is sooo unfair. Think positive about yourself. Who “expects” you to pass everything? I hope it wasn’t me. I think we’re all encouraging you to do well.

Assignment Rant, Picture, Video & a Study Tip

Yes…this is my first appropriate rant that is visible in my blog.

Once again, I won’t be online that much on msn. I have LOADS of study and Assignments to do.

Legal Studies, Business, Maths and Music. I think that’s it. The Legal one is a load of crap. We have a huuuge essay to do and we have to relate it to Power and Authority/ Rights and Duties. It’s a load of work. Business is just a typical 1 period test which I should be okay for. Maths…I h8 it soo much but i’m getting better at it. Music should be okay because that’s pretty much something I’m good at Lol.

well… i’m off. I’ll miss u all :P. I’ll be online in a week or something. But still visit my blog. there might be a new post at one point.

Edit.

I made this video about 3 days ago. It’s “In my arms” again but this version is much better. Although it’s still a draft. I made a really nice solo at the end. Just read my early posts and wait for the solo at the end. It’s really nice…in my opinion that is. I didn’t even know that I did it.

Edit two:

This is a ship that I painted on the program paint. Yep. I’m being serious. This ship was made during the free periods of Term 1 and 2. I made a draft and then remade a beautiful ship. I’m still deciding whether it’s finished or not because when I look at it, something keeps bugging me. Like.. It’s missing something. I don’t know. But for now i’m extremely happy with it.

Heh, what do you think? It’s all by hand and Pixels.

Study tip: Do you find it really hard to study? Yes I certainly do. We need something to keep us studying without it being sooooo boring! Unless it’s something really interesting. Anyways, the answer to consistent studying and the enthusiastic study mood is…surprisingly…Classical Music. It may not be right to most people but seriously, you have to try it out. Recently, I listened to classical music for like 4 hours AND studied at the same time and didn’t even realise and I did a heap of homework. I can’t really explain why classical music keeps your brain functioning properly that it makes you study. But, it’s useful for exams and that kind of stuff. Anyways, I’m off to do study.

My Busy Weekend and A Miracle

Hmm…it’s Sunday night…it’s raining and it’s bloody awesome. I love it when it rains at night. It changes the atmosphere in my room for some reason. A very comforting atmosphere and I can fall asleep easier. Yay

I had a busy weekend. Including Friday. I signed up for World Youth Day. It has to do with the pope I think. I’m doing Retail and Program Selling. it’s a four hour shift and i’m getting paid for it which is fine. I just want to get out of the house.

Last night I was at the AFL thing again. I used my previous strategy “Buy one for me and I’ll give it to you for free.” People laughed, smiled and rolled their eyes. Haha. At least it works for me and plus…it makes sense. I went to the AFL game after that. They were selling beer. Haha. Nah I don’t drink …yet that is. But to be honest, i’m not looking forwards to drinking. I rather stay young.

Oh yeah. I had my first driving lesson. My god…I found it really … easy & challenging at the same time. I can drive perfectly, I just need more practice on starting the car. I stall too much. It was a cool experience though. I can’t wait until I get my P’s. I can take people around and get back at the kids at my school who treated me like shit, by not giving them a lift when they need it.

Last night…was a pretty good night for me because I got one of the best things I could ask for at this stage. It’s a dream. I had a dream where I met my Current Crush. I couldn’t believe it. She looked EXACTLY the way she did in a photo I had of her. Usually in my dreams, people appear then they disappear and you wonder where they’ve gone. But no…not this one. My current crush stayed in front of me.  Unfortunately this dream was so short; I saw my current crush appear in front of me and I went all nervous. Strange of me. I said hey to her and she said hey back. I grabbed her hand because I had every opportunity too. But her hands felt like cloth…therefore when I was asleep, i was grabbing my blanket haha. I’m such a goose. I said to her that she was the most gorgeous girl I had ever seen and I actually do MEAN that. Even Reality. She blushed and then she hugged me and then I woke up! OMG. I woke up moaning that dream had ended so quikly. But i swear that felt really real (Apart from grabbing her hand). It’s amazing. I guess, I learnt that If you think about someone sooo much, they’ll end up in your dreams at some point. But I guess it proves something. That my current crush is the girl that I want the most because I spend like 16 hours of my day thinking about her. Sad really. That’s just the person I am (a hopeless romantic). Well… I hope I can get that dream again and say more hehe.

I got a new wallet today. My red one was like…breaking. I went to Paddys Market today and I got a new one. This new one is sooo much better. More slots, more space and everything. It’s bloody thick though which is excellent. It’s leather too.

Well…that’s all I have for tonight. Here comes a new week in 5 hours and 45 minutes. I hope this week things will lighten up a bit. I can’t depend on my dreams all the time.

What I USE to do in my spare time

Once upon a time when I was a fat piece of ham, I use to play with Legos, Knex and … Yeah. Lol Nah seriously, I had this dream once where I wanted to be a builder. So my mother bought me some lego and knex. She thought I was really creative and then I ended up getting the advanced Lego and Knex and I got even better lol.

Here’s 3 of my models and a little bit of history about them.

Battlefield DC Sniper Rifle

The Sniper Rifle. This model is about 3-5 years old. There’s an inner part of the gun and then I added the outer shells. I did NOT have any instructions with this model. I built it at the top of my head and imagination. It doesn’t look big there, but if you have it your hands, it’s like holding a real sniper rifle. I got the original Idea from Battlefield Desert Combat. There’s a real model of this Knex Model and uh… It’s been sitting in my room since year 5 and I’m still proud of it. I look at it sometimes and I think…woah…did I build that? If I broke it, I dont’ think I’ll be abel to build it again.

The Lego Battleship

This is only a few months old. It’s actually 7 months old. I got it for Christmas. Yes i’m 17, and I demanded a lego ship because I was always up for the challenge. Although, the box says Ages +7. Bullcrap it’s for 7 year olds. I even had trouble building it because it’s 67 cm long. It’s pretty long for a lego model. But i’ve seen bigger and if you get one part wrong, the rest of it is wrong. This has instructions. So I followed them carefully. 

The 5 Planes

These are the five planes. the red one is my favourite. It was the 2nd plane I made when I got back into lego. It’s about 5 years old now. The wooden one (2nd one) was made by hand in the woodworks room at my school in 2004. Didn’t claim it until 2005. The silver one is 6 years old. That had instructions, but then I decided to add more parts. The wooden one (4th one) was made last year. Can’t remember the date. It was also made by hand and lastly, the blue one. The blue one is about 3 years old. I made it after I realised I had more pieces in my lego box and most of them were blue.

So yeah, I can build and I can be creative. I had a dream that I could make the titanic out of lego. But that would take YEARS. Lol

Here’s a last photo of my budgies giving each other a clean. It’s a cool photo.

That’s a really hard photo to get because they freak out when they see my camera.

 

EDIT: A message to Westyy.. I’m stopping my 5th story and editing the 1st, 2nd and Third book for you. It will be done in a month or something.

My Stories/Novels. How they came about.

Things in General are pretty good at the moment. Just a few mintues ago, I finished another song. It’s called “Are you lost?” When you hear it, you might here a few Coldplay Chords in there, a few Lionel Richie chords in there and some other amazing inspirations. Usually when you mix 4 of the best songs in the world (in your opinion) it becomes a masterpiece. I’m not calling my piece a master piece but it’s good enough. Hehe. “Are you lost” is a different scenario to my other songs. It’s basically a first person song. And what happens is, this person is lost, he/she can’t seem to cope with life and certain people want to help him/her but she just won’t accept it. Something like that, I have to go over it.

Just the other night, I was talking to someone about my Novels and she wanted to read them. Other people have requested them, but I can’t at the moment. Although they’re completed, I need to edit them. Some of my language used in my novels will make you go emo. haha. Because I was under the influence of pokemon. That’s why i’m rewriting the 3rd one and writing the 5th one at the moment.

But still, I can give a general Idea of what my story is about. It’s a combination of “Violence, Action and Romance.” The romance takes a huge part in all the stories. There’s a reason for it and you’ll find out if I give it to you. There isn’t too much violence because I want kids to read it too. But the 5th one is not reccomended for kids hehe.  There are reasons to why I wrote these books. If you knew me since year 1, you would understand why It’s not normal of me to write stories. But I can tell you why i started writing them.

I use to like this girl in year 6. At that time I was praised for writing short stories. So then I said to myself. “Okay, maybe I should write a story about J***.” I began writing the first one which was only 15 pages. That’s not very much. The story was short and it’s pretty much an introduction. But today It’s officially finished. All the kids liked my story in year 6, so then I made the 2nd one. I didn’t end up finish it until the end of year 6. So in the holidays, no one knew that I continued it and I finished it in January 2004. Then I met new kids in February, year 7 and I was writing the 3rd one at that time. Then I added some more names into my story which was pretty cool. I had 40 names to remember but I was only concentrating on 6. Then I finally finished the third one and I stopped there. That was at the end of 2004. I had a great time in year 8 and 9…

Year 10… Just for the readers who Haven’t read my old posts. Year 10 was the most (emotionally) painful year of my school life. I had lost a really good friend. It’s a long story. I was depressed that year. I thought that I had no friends and that. Although I did…I was just expecting too much. Anyways, it got to a point where…I was just a “loner” hehe. It’s a terrible feeling. But hey, right now. I have loads. There’s nothing to worry about.

I was still thinking about the friend that I lost and someone else was involved with it making the situation worse. I got so upset about it. It lasted a year. My diary here in my room has all the feelings I had in 2006-2008. I’ve stopped writing in it recently because I was introduced to WordPress. This is much more fun.

Anyways at the end of 2007 I was feeling a lot better and then I was still thinking about the whole situation and then in December, I went through my old files and walah, I found my Old stories I wrote in year 6-7. I then thought, HOLY CRAP my vocabulary at the time was horrible. The Grammar was horrible too. So, I rewrote the first one and the second one. Still working on the third. But then…I got bored of the third one because It’s just too much to edit. I need a huge break from it. Then I began writing the 4th one. The 4th one is my best. It’s pretty much my life in 2007 in a book. Some characters represent certain people at my school and I wrote it in such a way that you will hate one of the characters so much that you’ll want to murder him. Next you find out that this particular character is a real person. Yeah. It was like writing a diary.

Now in the 5th one. I’m finding it really difficult to write because there’s nothing bad happening to me at the moment. I’ve noticed that, when I’m depressed or stressed I tend to write stories really well. I think because i had a massive change this year in my school life I’ve forgotten that I was depressed, therefore I forgot all the ideas I had. I might need another change…and the only way I can get this change is if I have to work for it. Think about it.